Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Aku maafkan korang....

Sempena bulan kemerdekaan tahun 2008 ni, aku ada satu cerita titik mula perjalanan aku sebagai anak Muar (Muarian reborn) .

Ogos 2007 - aku balik kampung tahun lepas, dalam keadaan kepala dan poket kosong.... Dataran ledang menyaksikan aku mula berniaga offline menjual tudung, jubah dan batik ...

Alhamdulilah setelah hampir setahun aku berniaga sepenuh masa, hidup aku makin teratur, perjalanan aku dalam mengejar dunia, dan akhirat makin nampak jalannya. Title jutawan mungkin masih jauh lagi, tapi itu yang aku tekadkan untuk melepasi umur 35 tahun..

Pagi tadi, aku masuk bilik air, aku renung cermin... ada satu niat terdetik dalam hati aku... aku maafkan korang.. , aku redha dengan apa yang korang dah buat pada aku, pada Adam Harith. Aku nak tidur lena mulai malam ni. Aku nak hidup aku tenang. Aku taknak fikir yang dah lepas. Aku nak bina semula hala tuju aku...

Doa aku, aku nak bela Adam Harith.. aku nak jadi anak soleh. Hati aku selalu kosong bila teringatkan dia. Ntahlah Adam, please doa everyday ok! Doa what you've been thought by me.. I hope what you wish on the 5th birthday will become true.. Insyaallah
..

Esok aku nak gi Shah Alam, nak ambil dia sebab cuti sekolah dah start. So we can have fun together again...

Dahlah malas nak tulis lagi, cukuplah aku luahkan hati aku kat sini... This is really personal and I think it shouldn't be exposed. But who cares... this is my blog. I rule the post. When I keep thinking of others, sometimes they don't bother and they don't eppreciate.

Prinsip aku sekarang memang senang... share je dalam kepala tu.. kalo simpan pecah kepala buat apa..Aku dah cukup merasa dan menanggung stress lebih setahun... lebih-lebih lagi masa akhir 2007 hingga pertengahan 2008... Kadang-kadang macam nak pecah kepala..

I hope nobody read this crap from me.. Just to release the pressure in my head... Seriously I wish nobody read this.

Wish me all the best Adam Harith! see you tomorrow.


p/s- Aku tulis ni bukan nak burukkan sapa-sapa. Apa yang aku kena khianat, takde sapa yang tahu. Apa yang orang nampak, aku jahat.. sebab tindakan emosional aku. Wajarkah korang jatuhkan hukum pada aku kalau korang dengar cerita daripada satu pihak? Bukan niat aku jatuhkan air muka sapa-sapa. Tulisan ni takde aku mention nama 'personal'. Ni tempat aku membuang gelodak isi perut dan hati .... Cukuplah korang permainkan aku. Aku doakan korang diberi petunjuk dan apa yang korang dah buat... itu urusan korang dengan Allah swt. Cuma aku pinta berhentilah menghasut Adam Harith bin Rosmansham. Berhentilah racuni fikiran dia..

.....13 Mac 2009

Love to hear what you think!

14 comments:

  1. Hmmm everyone will face difficulties. But depends on your strength to face it.

    God will be there for you. He listens to your prayers. Not all problems you can write here. No matter what, Adam is happy there with you and you are a good daddy ;)

    Happy Birthday Adam!

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  2. aku xnak memandai. Tapi, luahkanlah. Kau lebih tua dari aku. Itu yang pasti. :)

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  3. thaks shai..

    titan.. tau takpe... aku byk sgt rintangan, ujian.. dan kesabaran yg dah ditempuh.. walaupun ada ketikanya aku goyang, tapi alhamdulillah.. aku tak sempat jadi gila teringat anak... (raya thn lepas)

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  4. Keep in touch . . . I liked to read your story. You're far awar from me, but your story goes deep inside me ...

    dunia . . . dunia ...

    Hang ni orang yang TABAH la tu Mr. Sam...kalau tak, masakan Allah nak bebankan dengan semua ni. DIA tau hang bley tempoh semua ini. Besar ganjarannya ni.

    Hope all the mistakes not coming from you . . .

    keep in touch .

    n bagusla . . . You can forgive the "persons" . . . Its a matter of time . Semoga anda, anak anda bisnes anda, ditunjukkan jalan yang baik dalam hidup, diberikan kebaikan dunia akhirat.

    Semoga bertemu dengan insan yang menjadi penyejuk hati dan mata pada pihak Tuan.

    Amin

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  5. Thanks for the doa bro! Memang kena tabahkan hati.. nak buat camana... redha.. dan bertaubat. tu je yang mampu buat. setahun lebih simpan marah dan dendam.. waktu post ni tulis, baru rasa nak maafkan dengan hati terbuka.. dulu pernah maafkan, tapi bukan dgn ikhlas..

    ...Cuma berazam, baiki diri, jadi bapa mithali dan manusia beriman...

    orang yang untung... hari ini lebih baik dari semalam...

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  6. ak baru je wusyah post enko yg lepas2.. ak baru taw status enko after bace post ini.. ak harap enko byk kan bersabar yer.. semua org ade masalah, mcm ak juga.. percaya x ak penah nak bunuh diri dan ambil ice semata2 nak hilangkan semua masalah yg ak ader.. nasib baik ade ustaz kat skolah ak byk bantu, bg ak nasihat & bimbing.. antara nasihat yg ak igt ialah

    jgn kecewa dgn masalah hari nie, sehingga terlupa akn kebahgiaan hari esok.. kerna mungkin esok Allah menyediakan sebuah kebahgiaan utk mu sbg hadiah ketabahan hari nie.

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  7. sila bace post ak yg ini..

    http://muhafis-on9.blogspot.com/2008/09/my-life-so-miserable.html

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  11. Waktu sy kehilangan seseorang yg sgt bermakna dlm hidup sy..sy tak berhenti mencari sebab..but atas nasihat seorang doktor merangkap ustaz..dia suruh sy beli buku "jangan bersedih". alhamdulillah sy dlm proses menemui apa yg telah hilang..apa yg sebenarnya hilang..

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  12. buku tu tulisan sapa?? terbitan? Insyaallah saya akan cuba cari... thanks catzer.

    Tapi Alhamdulillah, lepas saya niatkan dengan ikhlas untuk maafkan diorang, memang saya makin cool, makin relax, makin tenang.. memang dulu pernah dengar tips Dr. Fadzillah, dia cakap maafkan semua orang sebelum tidur.. tapi memang saya berkeras taknak maafkan diaorang berdua.. nak simpan dendam sampai mati. Bukan lagi ok, lagi stress ada ler..

    Sekarang dah malas nak fikir... past is past.. look for the future...

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  13. Sam...aku ada buku tu. Bahsa melayunya "jangan bersedih". Bahasa arabnya "La tahzan."

    mmg bagus buku tu..aku dah baca. Aku pun baru tau jer status ko sam..dalam 1 bulan lepas..

    Harap ko tabah. Kat sini semua member2 ko akan bantu ko dan sokong ko. Jgn sedey2 ok..hehe. Org besar xleh sedey2 bro.. :D

    Aku doa ko berjaya dunia akhirat. Bahagia bersama Adam Harith.

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  14. Thanks Din..thanks semua.. aku makin tenang sekarang.. Aku dah berjaya terima hakikat...

    Redha Qada dan Qadar

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